Monday, May 28, 2018

Hear the Music

Music has always played a big part in my writing.  While I'm not musically talented in any way, I've always admired those who are.  There isn't any one genre I listen to.  My Pandora station is usually on shuffle with too many stations to choose from.  At the moment, Thriving Ivory (aka Midnight Cinema) is taking a turn.  Their music is often really good to write to. 
One thing I've noticed about coming off a certain prescription is that I'm finally hearing music once again.  It's not that all music has stopped in the past, but it has been dampened by something.  You know how you get a song stuck in your head and you can sing along day in and day out?  Well, that was gone.  I couldn't recall music or songs or anything musical.  It's weird.  Yes, I could physically hear what was playing on the radio, but it wouldn't stick.  Once it was done, that was it, it was over. 
It's like I'm hearing this stuff for the first time once again.  While it is familiar, I've been missing it for a long, long time.  A funny thing to notice.  I guess the medication did some goofy things to my head.  It did what is was supposed to do, but all the extras were exhausting.  Now, I'm coming out of the mental fog and noticing more of what's around me. 
Gaslight Anthem just finished playing and now Phil Collins has started up.
I don't know if I mentioned it on here, but I found my notes on Oneiros.  They weren't hidden, I just simply forgot where they were.  It was on my desktop this entire time.  Along with music, I lost track of notes.  The mental fog was heavy.  But now I've been able to go over the notes, make adjustments to the story, and actually accomplish some writing.  I had gotten off track a little.  I was stumped.  I couldn't get past a certain scene and it was hanging up the entire process. 
Yiruma Radio takes a turn.
My back up hard drive started to choke last week.  I went to get a new one and came across an open box deal on a laptop that was awfully shiny.  I've skipped the back up drive for now.  I wasn't looking for a new laptop, but I was worrying about mine.  The battery was on its last leg and had left me with nothing more than a paper weight several times.  The entire system was slowing down.  I don't do anything taxing on the computer.  I don't game or render anything that makes the laptop work out.  But programs where taking awhile to load.  My machine had been a good machine for a long time. 
Josh Groban takes a turn.
The biggest thing I'm stumbling with is the mouse pad responds reverse to what I'm used to.  I know it's easy to convert, but I'll leave it alone and see how long it takes to rewire my brain. 
I've gotten way off subject.  Music.  The Calling plays.
I feel I'm coming back to earth as I knew it to be.  I've been detained for some time now and I'm a little rusty.  But I'm liking most of what I'm finding.  A bit more time and I'll be back to work, I hope.
Finding the notes on Oneiros was a huge move.  It brings back the point of the story.  The playlist was tucked away in those notes.  Now I can recall more of the feeling behind the writing.  It's been comforting. 
But now it's late and I have a few more things to finish up tonight before getting to bed.  So with that, I'll sign off while The Fray sings out a number.
Keep playing the music. (Does that mean I'm a cylon?)

Thursday, May 17, 2018

Things Change

Things are changing, and hopefully for the better.  I'm back from Dallas and feel refreshed.  We had a yard sale this past weekend that I survived.  Now the house is cleaned out and ready for the summer.  The VW Bug is running, not yet street worthy but getting better.  A few more adjustments and it should be good to drive.  I just finished babysitting a friend's dog, so now I'm back to business.
I had mentioned before that I was beginning to feel better.  I've come off some prescriptions and visited with my doctor today.  As long as I can keep up this pace, we're not going to start any new medications.  That makes me happy.  I'm now able to concentrate again, so I'm hoping writing will start back up.  I've been buying books and reading over old projects.  I'm actually retaining what is read.  That is progress.  I'm not sure I'll recover fully, but this is a good start. 
My parents just got back from visiting Northwestern Washington.  I'm loving their pictures and stories.  Looks like a wonderful place.  I've always wanted to visit there.  Several friends have moved to that area.  I'm hoping that I'll be able to plan a trip before too much longer.  It would be nice to catch up with everyone.
We have one more trip planned for this year coming up shortly.  We'll be going to Michigan to visit family.  I'm excited for it.  It'll be the first trip in a while that I'm actually feeling like my old self.  Perhaps I'll be able to get out and see things this time around. 
The weather is warming up around here.  Starting to feel like summer.  The grass is growing faster than we can keep up.  I'm not complaining.  It's nice and green and actually looks inviting.  I'm contemplating freshening up the flowerbed with some new flowers.  I haven't done much with this one.  We've been here several years now and it's time to customize. 
It's nice to be home and getting back to life.  Getting around will mean more to write about.  More writing will lead to progress in WiPs.  That, hopefully, will open the way back to writing full time.  It's a goal.  Let's see what happens.

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Unintended Break

I haven't checked in in a while.  I don't have a good reason.  It started with my lack of writing as of late.  Then I was frustrated even more by my inability to concentrate on anything.  I eventually fell out of practice and ended up forgetting to update the blog.  I see I'm still getting visitors, so thank you for hanging in there.
I'm working on getting back to the writing.  I've never struggled with inspiration until this year.  Now it's a real hang up.  I guess time will tell if my new tactics are working.  Let's hope so.
I've started up with the cello again.  It is more difficult than I remember it to be.  I think my lack of concentration is hurting there as well.
We've taken on a '73 Beetle.  It has been neglected for at least a year.  We're hoping to have it running soon.  It hardly takes up any space in the garage, which is good since it's a tiny garage.  We've tinkered with it here and there, but we're hoping things will clear up in a few weeks and we'll be able to spend more time on it.  Until then, we look for a battery and install a dome light. 
I ended up trading the truck in for a little four-door car.  It was too big for me.  I had one several years ago.  I don't remember it feeling like a big truck.  And we used it a lot.  I guess I've changed.  Poor truck.  I hope it gets a good home. 
So I guess it's back to the WIPs with the hopes of getting some work done.  Until next time.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

Late check in Row80 2/28/18

I said I wasn't going to miss another post.  So here I am writing this one a day late.  I'll have to make the rounds after it's posted.  I usually try to read over all the check-ins before I put mine up. 
Still not much happening here.  I did finally do some writing.  A page and a half worth.  It isn't much, but for going so long since my last writing, I'm happy with it.  It was for a project that stands alone and is now over, but there it is.  Maybe this is a start to getting back to work with these WiPs. 
*hopes*

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

#Row Check-In 2/21/18

I've missed the past several check-ins.  There hasn't been much to report on.  Mainly reading through WiPs.  One I quit reading before I was half way through.  I've noticed a big problem with "show, not tell".  I have lots and lots of telling happening throughout the story and very little showing.  It was very frustrating to find.  The whole thing would need a lot of rewriting to fix.
So I have plenty to write.  Now to sit down and actually write.  That's been a bit of a problem as of late.  Not sure what the hold up is.
I've rearranged the office yet again.  Let's see if that helps.  I've been looking at new desks.  Haven't found one that jumps out at me just yet.  There are a few that I like, but not enough to go out and haul home.
Pilates have waned.  That's my fault.  I was starting to notice a difference, too.  I'll just have to pick them back up.
I'd like to think I'll be back with the check-ins now.  We were without internet for a short period of time, but that's been fixed.  We changed providers.  I'm not sure what the difference is.  It's working again, so that's a good thing.
See you next time!

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

#Row80 Check-In 1/31/18

Wednesday check-in time.  A tiny check-in.  I finished the read-through of Always & Forever.  That's done.  Next is ... I'm undecided.  Do I go back through with the edits I made notes of, pick up where the story left off and keep writing (I know what I want to happen in the story, I'm just reluctant to finish it), or do I close it up for a span of time once again?  It was nice to go over it with fresh eyes.  I think I found more in it than I would have if I had kept editing as I wrote.  Then again I remember getting frustrated with it and putting the story away.  I'm a little slow to decide what to do with it. 
What do you do when you stall out in a WiP?  Do you push through?  Or do you give it a rest?  How do you decide?

Sunday, January 28, 2018

#Row80 Check-In 1/28/18

Sunday check-in time.  Not much happening again.  I didn't do the writing prompt yet, but I am wanting to.  I'll have to sit still and do that before too much longer here.  I've been reading over A&F.  That's pretty much it.  I've done a little editing here and there in A&F, but I'm trying to wait until I've done a complete read through. 
And the fish tank has gotten bigger.  I found some fish this weekend at a pet store and graduated to a free standing tank.  Now I have room for my pygmy puffers.  They are so much fun to watch.  The office is feeling better already.  Now to actually use it as an office and not just a desk and fish room.