Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Unfaithful

It seems that each time I promise myself I'm going to finish one WiP, something comes up.  I've probably mentioned this before, but I restricted all new ideas to the notepad.  I refuse to create another Scrivener project folder.  Then I said I wasn't going to buy any more books for awhile because (1) I have a bunch on my shelf waiting to be read and (2) I think I owe the attention to my writing projects.

There is something I've learned during all this.  When I crash and burn, I don't bounce back the way I used to.  I've already decided against NaNoWriMo this year.  That was a heart breaker for me, but I think it's for the best.  I've bowed out of Row80 for the time being.

In my determination to get in gear, I've entered into a challenge with a fellow writer to finish A&F by a certain date.  It was last weekend, but we both missed.  We've reset it to this upcoming weekend.  It's not that I'm not taking it seriously, just more like I can't concentrate.  And that's on anything.  I've bought more books and movies, downloaded music and series, and have accomplished nothing.  Even blogging is a chore.  I can't decide if I need to be mindlessly entertained or whip myself back into shape.

Last week was our trip to South Padre Island.  It was wonderful.  I didn't want to come home.  As relaxing and refreshing as it was, it went too quickly.  Now all that's left to show for it is a blotchy sunburn.  Even still, I think I can file it away as one of my favorite vacations.  The laptop went with me, but I never made myself do any work.  I'm undecided if the laptop is on the "take" list for our next travels.

I've let myself get distracted with all the aforementioned books, movies, music, and series.  I guess I like juggling stories and plot lines.  Back stories have been a big deal for me lately.  I've always paid attention to them, but it seems I look for them more than I used to.  Well ... back stories and multidimensional characters.   If these are a strong point in a book/movie/series, I can't put it down.

With all this, I've been wondering if I'm ever going to complete another WiP.  I can work up ideas galore, but good luck on seeing one through to the end.  That said, I found a little bit of encouragement.  One of the stories I've been following was 'dead' for ten years and the writers recently spit out another volume.  Even though there was a decade since the last appearance of their characters, it picked right up as if they never left.  And then they kept it open to the possibility of more to come.  They worked on different projects and stories while this one was at rest to later came back to it when they found the time was right.  It's good to know someone out there has some self control ... or is that self regulation?  Either way, I'm still learning.

1 comment:

  1. Wendy, I think you're putting too much pressure on yourself. It sounds to me like you're burned out and needing a longer writing break. So give yourself permission to take it. And don't worry about it. Really. Your characters will be there when you return, too. Your brain will still be making needed connections, and you'll get back to the JOY of writing. It sounds like it's a chore now, and that never motivates me, either! Life is full, life is busy, and you need to do other things for you, too. It sounds like you got a taste of what you need on vacation. So relax, and let your mind go where it will. Don't feel guilty. Us creative types have to "go off into the wilderness" sometimes. We'll be here when you get back. :)

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